eleven, it is!

Many times I just can't believe this privilege of having so many kind friends. Few months back had been a very enjoyable experience with these people, who really opened my eyes to see that this world is maybe not that cruel, unfair, or whatever it is you call it. 

It is kind. Well, of course life gets hard sometimes, but you can go through anything with some good friends. 

And when you've done the hardest thing you've ever met, you'll realize you never done it alone. There's always some good friends behind your back, or beside your shoulder, to push you and hug you with their own ways⎯ 

making the obstacles seems bearable, just so you can finally say, "I did it!".

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hey

hey, you.

you never cease to amaze me.

with your view on everything, your way of thinking, just you.
whatever shapes you.

the way you say "I care about you" is what makes me stunned most.
probably you're the most caring person I've ever met in my life.

you remembers!
everything.
everything that I've said to you.

where does my sisters goes to work,
what my mom usually do at home,
when's my dad left for work,
who's my friend who came for a sleepover,
my sleeping habits,
my rants about boys,
my dreams,
and the list goes on.

hey you,
aren't you the coolest?

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wayne

Do you know why I love Batman so much?

(well, nope. you don't even know that I love Batman)

(still gonna tell you anyway)

The fact that his parents died after being shot by a poor, homeless guy who don't even know how to hold a gun properly,

and yet he still wants to be a hero who helps those kind of persons instead of being a villain and try to shoot them all for killing his parents. 

He forgives.

***

I don't know a thing about forgiving. For me, it's never been easy. What is forgiving, after all? Is forgiving and forgetting basically the same? Or, is it possible that you forgive but never forget? How do you cope with the pain that comes with the memory, when you say you 'forgive but never forget'?

Well.. perhaps Bruce himself don't know a thing about forgiving,

"You're stronger than your father."
"You didn't know my father."

"But I know the rage that drives you. That impossible anger strangling the grief, until the memory of your loved one is just.. poison in your veins. And one day, you catch yourself wishing the person you loved had never existed so you'd be spared in your pain."

..maybe he just learns to use his pain as his weapon.

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spot the light

Being 20 means everything to me. It alters me.
We all have the moment that hit us hard, and for me, it's when I turn 20.

I am just happy that we all survive. We may stumble, but we didn't collapse.
Maybe it's because we remember to turn the light.
Maybe it's because we all believe.
Maybe it's because the laughs and the tears.
Maybe,

just maybe,

it's because love strengthen us.

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